千の友達!

千の友達を作りたいと思うけど、本当にいいの?
なんか、そんな思うは変わるそうだ。
だって、数えなくてもいいだと思う。
大勢の友達があるので、本当の仲間が必要な事だと思う。
だから、今はいらない。
実は今のやりたいことは、今の本当の仲間を守りたいと思う。
後で千の友達を作ろう!

A Hole in My Heart

From the start i realize that I'm a Drama Queen. I can't stop once i started watch Korean or Japan series. Then i realize that maybe watch all of those dramas make my writing style sometime too sensitive and i'm a bit poetic. Sometimes i even remember the line of their dialogue and the scene in the drama. How freak i am!
But i will take some positive note in my freak hobby, i can write notes. Even though sometimes i didn't know why i wrote like that! Hahahaaha...
I didn't realize that i have lots of notes and sometimes I'm a bit embarrassed when i read over it again. How could i become so melancholic and sometimes  i told to myself. Wow, when i wrote all these stuffs!
This is one of them, i should make it become a song maybe (Laughing)...

A Hole in My Heart

I should’ve known from the start,

Maybe I already knew but I was pretending

My empty chest

I can fake my smile

I can fake my laugh

I can play a role like I’m a drama queen

I can do it, yes i can do it...

But deep inside my heart it just an empty room

An empty chest

It just become a hole in my heart

I’ve tried my best

But it just happened again…

It becomes a hole in my heart

I can’t hate others

I can’t blame others

I always want to do my best

I should’ve known and seen from the start, from the very beginning…

Nothing will change…

But I realize that I was hoping and I believed that I can do it

I can do it indeed, but nothing changed

What I’ve been through…

No need to know…

As I’ve known from the start

Just do my best that’s all I can do

Not for anyone but for me

For my own sake and people around who trust me

I can do it…

And this hole in my heart

All the disappointment

All the failure

All the things that makes a hole in your heart

Just accept it because it’s not a bad thing

It makes you stronger and tough

Just believe it…

愛は光の世、Can you live without love?

愛というと、なんという意味?

少しずつ分かっただと思う。

人生は愛のことは必要なことですよね。

大事なことでしょう。

愛はいらないと言ったら、自身がある?本当にいいの?

でもさ、人生はやっぱり愛は必要だと思う。

なんか、愛はない時はさみしいなあ感じ。

誰のため生きて行く、自分のためしか?できないだろう。

寂しそう。

意味ない、生きられない。

愛は光の世、
力強さ、

Can you live without love?

独り言 My Monologue!

Again,,This Japanese note was inspired by Itazurana Kiss Love in Tokyo, this time inspired by Itakiss Season 2. I was waiting this series since i watch season 1 in 2013. I was so happy when i noticed that they will make the special episode and also season 2. Then i watched it over and over again. I always waiting for the series every week. Then when the ending come closer absolutely i felt so sad and i couldn't say goodbye. It's hard to say goodbye and i couldn't bear it. That's the trigger why i wrote this note.
I'm a movie freak but i always want to take the positive value from everything i watched or read.
If there's no good point of the things that i did it will be useless and i want to share to everyone to take a good point on everything you did.

このドラマは本当にお終いなの?
なんかさようならの言葉は嫌な事だと思う。
私も大好きな事だったら、さようならの言葉は無理だよ。
だって、それは私の大事なことでしょう。
もういい。
やめた方が良いのかなぁ。
でも、信じられない。やめたくない。
私だったら、好きなことは諦めたくない。
ドラマのような、いつか私も自分の夢を叶えますように。
今度はちゃんと叶えますように。

そのドラマの教えてくれた事から、
今の私は夢中じゃなくて、本当の生活の中にいる。
だから、これからももっと頑張ります｡
し、あ、わ、せ!

Time to Wake up from My Dramaland

My dramaland, the place where i'm running away from all the things i didn't wish...
My dramaland is the place where my fantasies and my imagination took their roles.
My dramaland, where everything happen as i want
But it will become never ending stories
Coz it just happen as i imagine and as i wish...

My dramaland will always be my hidden place...

It's time for me to wake up from my dramaland
It's time for me to face all the reality,

If i know when to start something, then i have to know when the time to stop it...

My dramaland will be always there as my place to running away for a while
I will be there again somehow but for now it's time for me to wake up,leaving it as it is and continue what i have to finish...

Addicted to Thai Boxing and Sports: "It makes me Happy!!"

My Journey

Life is adventure. That’s what I really realize now.

What we were, what we did, what we got and what we’ve been through…

We would never know what we are going to do and what will happen to us.

What we like and what we hate sometimes change automatically

Sometimes we judge something without know anything.

When something didn’t look like what we want then we just hate it and even don’t wanna see and know about it.

Me too, I was like that… I didn’t hate but I just didn’t like it…

But don’t get me wrong, I won’t do anything. What I’m gonna do just make a line…

For now… I will challenge myself because I realize that I like challenge

I like adventure…my journey has begin like I previously said in my notes,

Then I will review all the things I did here, sharing my experiences, sharing my hobbies…

Just for your references

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I am K & J dramas freak, I admit it… but different with others I just keep silence and lurking any information… 

It remains unchanged until now and it’s almost 8 years… don’t say I don’t have life coz it’s my way enjoying my life, I will give my review about dramas in my other notes.

For now I will write about sport…

In my past I didn’t interest much in any kind of sport…

I learned volleyball, learned badminton but I didn’t interest to do it… 

what makes me interested was “Pencak Silat” Indonesian traditional martial arts, but I remembered that my past days, my health condition was not as good as now so I gave up…

I learned basketball in my junior high school time but I didn’t take it too seriously then it was just like wind breeze…forgot about it.

But I realized that since my junior high school time I love sport even only watch it. 

Back then I really love Valentino Rossi and always watch MotoGP, I also love watch soccer with my friends in my class (we were soccer and motogp freakers). How could I forget that time!

Then I didn’t realize that time just passed by and in this time i remember that memory remain the same.

I still love that time but the different is I like doing sport right now.

Let’s talk about what I’m doing now…

Thai boxing…

For those who didn’t really know about this and just make your own perception that Thai Boxing is about fighting just try it then you will know what it is.

For a woman thai boxing can be counted as tough or we may call extreme sport but I do it and I realize it gives me so many beneficial values. From it I learn how to protect myself. I feel more save and I feel happier. I feel more focus and the most important thing is, I keep it in my mind what would I use this for and what for I’m doing this. The strong and firmness training can make you strong as person. I realize that I feel more confident and now I’m addicted to sports.

I’m not afraid of being tired and I realize that sometimes we experienced risk of injury but that’s the part of it. Same as life that sometimes we happy and sometimes sad, in sport also sometimes we health sometimes we injured. Just enjoy the part of it. Then you will get used to do it and you will realize that you enjoy the show. Enjoy being the part of Thai boxing.

I’m not a fighter but i learn and take values from it. So I wouldn’t judge anything as I want. Because I know that learning something is not as easy as we thought. We need effort to learn and to be a part of something. So don’t ever dare to say something bad about Thai boxing or any other sports if you’ve never became part of it!

Trust me, once you involved in strong or extreme sport, you will be addicted to it and looking for other new challenges! Try on it…

Salam Olahraga!  

Here is some information for Muay Thai training camp in Jakarta :

Ultima : Jl. Guru Mughni no. 123, Setiabudi, DKI Jakarta 12950, Indonesia (www.ultimamuaythai.com)

+62  878-8800-5588

Arena : Jl. Bumi no. 18, DKI Jakarta, Kota Jakarta Selatan, Daerah Khusu Ibukota Jakarta 12120, Indonesia (arenammainindonesia.com/) (+62 21 72228186)

Don't try to be Accepted by Others, Be Who You Are"

Ohho..Let's drown for a moment,

Let’s just ignore the others thought for awhile…

Let’s experience something new…
This time i don't know who's the inspiration, then i'll let my finger just keep typing...

In our past we’ve already experienced many things and we can take learn from it.

But don’t you realize that perhaps you are not the type of someone who can stand and doing the same things repeatedly. You need challenge…

You won’t give up for what you always do, but sometimes what you need is challenge…

You are not the one who can leave something and forget it, you will keep it.

Sometimes you always want to say :

“Don’t you even try to understand me coz I’m not the typical person that you can easily understand. Don’t you even dare to judge me if you know nothing about me”.

Well said.

Sometimes you feel alright and nothing’s wrong with you, you’ll be okay to be as who you are.

Do you have those thoughts on your mind?

Maybe our thoughts sometimes just as simple as we thought but sometimes the fact is not as easy as it is.

We would never know what people think even if we know them.

We can’t ask them to do and to be as we wish.

Even if we always have good thoughts and treat them well but sometimes people will just ignore it and they will forget it.

We will never know what people really want, so don’t ever judge and don’t ever think that you can understand how they feel.

Please don’t try to be someone who tries to be accepted by others.   

Just be you, be who you are.

There are so many reasons to be ourselves, to enjoy our lives, to appreciate ourselves.

If you never appreciate yourself then who will do it?

Sometimes to be unaccepted is necessary. 

It will make us stronger coz we have to fight for what we believe, for what we want.

Keep strong and fighting, all you need is challenge and encouragement

嘘だったなのに

This note was inspired by Itazurana Kiss Love in Tokyo season 1,
Kotoko had a monologue about Naoki, She said that she didn't understand Naoki's feeling...
I don't know why i just like the line and it was inspiring me to write this note...

他の人の気持ち分からない。

なんでそんな笑顔を見せて、

そんな優しそな笑顔が、

そんな優しそな話が､

嘘だったなのに。

なんで現実を見せてくれなかったの。

笑ったら、ちゃんと笑うよ。

怒ったら、ちゃんと怒るよ。

やっぱり、人の気持は分からない。

なんで他の人の気持ちに傷つけた。

人はなぜ、

The Journey Has Begin- もっと幸せ、もっと楽しい!

私は今年も､もっと幸せになりたい。

もっとも良い事をたくさんありますように｡

私はいい記憶を作りたくて、

まだやってない事もやってみたい。

昔の私は考え過ぎて、不安な事もたくさんあった。

でも今はやりたいことがたくさんあるから、

ちゃんとやるつもりだ。

私いつもこのようなになったら、

絶対無理だと思う。

色々な新しいことがたくさんあるからだ｡

すぐ始まるよ!

新しい時間が来たよ!

大事なことを守りたい!

きっともっと幸せになります。

走れ、飛べ、泳げ、乗れ、動け、打ち抜く、蹴る!

もっと楽しい｡

お楽しみに !

Yoshh, this year should have more fun.

Enjoy life more, yeah that's right this is the time.

Run..and get what you want.

This time should be more happy and fun..

Don't be afraid...as long as you didn't do anything wrong just no need to be worry.

"Make life simpler is the more fun and exciting moment.."

Like i used to do it in my past, i never felt worry if i got lost. I didn't know how come i could get all the encouragement. But as  long as i make it simple don't know how i've always find the answers.

If i take it simple i always feel happier.

And this is the time...

To go back to the real me, the time to do what i've never done before...

To do something that make me feel burn and enthusiastic!

Looking forward to it...

And the journey has begin....!

同じ空を見る [Stare to the same sky]

私は空を見る時、気分が良くになった。
青空と白い雲も、本当にきれいな景色だと思う。見れば見るほど、気分がもっと良くになった。
見たら、ついに自分に聞きたい言葉は [ほかの人は空を見る時に、どう思う?]って、[ほかの場所で、どう見える?]と考えた｡
朝、昼、夜も 空の形はいつも同じだよ｡
ただ変えるのは色だし、時々白くて、青くて、黒くて、炎色が見える。
そうすると、空を見ることが大好きだと思う｡

人間も同じだと思う。
人間の気持ちと考え方は変わったそうだ｡
その人間は同じだけど、ただ変えるのは心と考え方だけだと思う。
それよりも、すべてはその人間の決定だろう。
[どうやってるの、どう考えてるの] すべて自分の決断だと思う。

でも、覚えておくべきポイントは [私達は同じ空を見る]だろう｡
どこでも空を見えることができて、どこでも見るのはいつも同じだ。
だから、我々はごうまんである必要はない。
普通の人間だから。

Banda Aceh 2012 

Shangrilla Hotel - Jakarta 2014

In front of my office - Jakarta

Stare to the sky - ujung genteng beach west java

Foggy - sky - Puncak west java

Beautiful sky - Ujung genteng beach, west java

Cloudy sky - Jakarta

Early morning - sky - Monas, Jakarta

Beautiful sky - Ujung genteng, West Java

Beautiful sky - Phillipines, cr: Ranxie

Love the sky - Shizuoka Japan cr: ti2chan

Lovely sky from Senayan, Jakarta

Blue sky - Bali

lovely sky - ti2chan, Shizuoka Japan

Sky Lovers and lovely moon ipin - Cikarang, west java

Lovely sky - Ujung genteng, west java

I always feel good when i stare to the sky.
Sky never change, wherever we see it.
Even if i'm here, another people in the other countries also stare to the same sky.
it only the colors that change.
Sometimes blue, sometimes white, sometimes orange and when the night comes it will be black.
Stare to the sky will make me realize that i'm very small. God creates the beatiful scenery for us.
I love when i stare to the sky. It is so peaceful.

It is also the same with people.
People actually same but the differences are how the way they thought and how the way they acted.

My 2014 was Tough but it Makes Me Tougher as a Person

What you've been done?

Last year was not as easy as i thought or i might call it a bit tough for me.
It's not like i couldn't pass it well but hard to say i feel very sorry for myself for many things happened last year. Since i was out of my mind. All the simple things have gone and all the way i thought and did, i didn't enjoy it. i was over thinking. Like my teacher said "メイリナさんは考え過ぎる" [Meirina is Over-thinking]
But that's the truth. Throwback to those time, i tried to do my best but i didn't enjoy anything. I feel so ashamed and regret it. Coz time pass by and nothing change. Somehow it feels like i was try to run but something tied me up.
Compared to 2years ago, i was so different
I felt so free and enjoy my life.
I realize that 2014 was hard. Hard for me to burn out my different side. Hard to eliminate those thoughts. Hard to fight back my laziness.
But even so, i thought that my other side is not really lost from me. Even last year hard but i believe i will reach all the sweetness this year, life is all about bittersweet right? I already tasted the bitterness then this should turn to be my sweetest time. Reach all dreams this year. I believe...

"It was a tough year for me but it makes me tougher as a person."

"It was a hard year for me but i also had new experiences to learn from it" 

Last year i was not afraid to do what i've never done before. But thanks to God i always wanna do in a positive ways.

These are moments that make me free:

1. Went to Bali just for walk away

2. Went to Ujung Genteng

3. Start for weekly Running

4. Start for fun running

5. Join Futsal Event

6. Join Jakarta Marathon 2014

7. Start join muay thai - kick boxing 

So on...those things are things who made me feel free in 2014, what's yours?

I Remembered

It has been a year since that time, last year, in new year 2014 i remembered that i got the shocking news in the morning time. Lee seung gi dating yoona, that was shocking news and broke my heart that time. but i'm just his fans and still remain the same until now. Since that time, time went by and it's already a year.
People change,everything change and so many things happened.
All the bitter sweet things happened and we left it as memories.
I remembered that time...
All those things happened will stands still on our mind.
This new year we have to face new challenges.
New resolutions, new hopes, new dreams...
All the new things will come but we need to finish first what we start...
私も同じだよ。その夢は夢だけじゃない!
その夢は私の希望だ!
もっと頑張りますように、もっと幸せになりますように｡色々良い事もたくさんありますように。
それは私の希望だ!

明けましておめでとうございます 。
今年も宜しくお願いします。
o(^▽^)o