A Hole in My Heart

From the start i realize that I'm a Drama Queen. I can't stop once i started watch Korean or Japan series. Then i realize that maybe watch all of those dramas make my writing style sometime too sensitive and i'm a bit poetic. Sometimes i even remember the line of their dialogue and the scene in the drama. How freak i am!
But i will take some positive note in my freak hobby, i can write notes. Even though sometimes i didn't know why i wrote like that! Hahahaaha...
I didn't realize that i have lots of notes and sometimes I'm a bit embarrassed when i read over it again. How could i become so melancholic and sometimes  i told to myself. Wow, when i wrote all these stuffs!
This is one of them, i should make it become a song maybe (Laughing)...

A Hole in My Heart

I should’ve known from the start,

Maybe I already knew but I was pretending

My empty chest

I can fake my smile

I can fake my laugh

I can play a role like I’m a drama queen

I can do it, yes i can do it...

But deep inside my heart it just an empty room

An empty chest

It just become a hole in my heart

I’ve tried my best

But it just happened again…

It becomes a hole in my heart

I can’t hate others

I can’t blame others

I always want to do my best

I should’ve known and seen from the start, from the very beginning…

Nothing will change…

But I realize that I was hoping and I believed that I can do it

I can do it indeed, but nothing changed

What I’ve been through…

No need to know…

As I’ve known from the start

Just do my best that’s all I can do

Not for anyone but for me

For my own sake and people around who trust me

I can do it…

And this hole in my heart

All the disappointment

All the failure

All the things that makes a hole in your heart

Just accept it because it’s not a bad thing

It makes you stronger and tough

Just believe it…