Tuesday, December 24, 2013

"The Rules: Broke the rules or not it depends on you, your thought!"

Most of the young generations 
Some of them trust that it would be more interesting if they didn't have any rules in their life 
or in simple words they would say "broke the rules! because rules are made to be broken"
They're enjoying free life
They're enjoying what just can make them fun
without thoughts, without regrets
Laughing, broke the rules and thought it as achievement
Broke the rules and feel satisfied of what they did

Most of the young generations
Broke the rules and they called it as aspirations
Broke the rules and they called it as inspirations
Broke the rules and they called it as arts
can be assumed as you're winning a challenge if you broke the rules
How come?

Most of the young generations are broke the rules only for their satisfaction
They only thought how to broke the rules without thought what value contained in it 
without regrets still continue to broke it one by one
and the results?
some of them act childish
some of them act selfish
some of them can't be trusted
some of them become irresponsible
whose faults?
for me their own faults!
Because they have already get the rules in their life but they always broke it!

Even though you didn't taught by your parents
Even though you didn't taught by schools
Even though no rules in your family
Even though no rules in your life
just make one for yourself!
Because rules also important
Rules are as your limitation, restriction
Rules are as your controller, boundary
between right and wrong!
between good and bad!
between should and shouldn't!
between do and don't!

That's why i choose to control my life with rules
because if someday i broke the rules
i will remind my self about who i am!
and wouldn't let my life out of control



Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Show time "Did you get what you want?"

Counting day by day.. 
It will no longer 2013
What did you do on this past year?
Did you get what you want?
2014 come so soon
Left 2013 behind
What did you get?
Did you get what you want?
Tell me what did you get...
Is it a big thing?
Is it a great thing?
Is it a proud thing?
Tell me what you did
Did you get what you want?

Though you feel haven't earned anything
Though you feel haven't done anything
Though you feel that you just wait and watch all the possibilities
But it seems like things that comes to you only the impossibilities

Have you aware that...
You've got something in this year
You've got experiences
You've done what you need to do
All you need is chances
But you've got all of it
You also get the chances
It's just not your time
As long as you do what you have to
Keep calm but keep watch
Watch all the possibilities
Until the time comes

This is your show time
Show them what you have
Show them who you are
and tell them did you get what you want?
Because the show is mine

            - OrieNz -

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

"Hobby Led Me and Experiences Taught Me"

Another part of dramas? yes my life sometimes like a drama that has protagonist and antagonist as well. That's why i like watch dramas. I've mentioned it before in my previous post that i like watch k-dramas and J-dramas. But these days i often watch K-dramas. That's my hobby. i often cry and laugh out loud because of my hobby, the reason is somehow i can take learns from some sort of that dramas. 

In dramas there are always a main actor as protagonist either as antagonist role. For me i don't have to be as protagonist one. I don't wanna be like a Cinderella or a weak character that should be protected by another one. I hate weak protagonist character, who always cry and lost from the battle. I  But i don't wanna be like antagonist character who don't have feeling, who would make other suffer. I don't like a meaningless antagonist character. But i don't wanna be a supporting role who has to be a flat performance. If i had to choose i would choose as director who can directing how the story line and others role. Then if i couldn't, i would choose as an antagonist role who doesn't have a making up character and self-righteous but have clear character who would concede defeat and play sportive. If i really couldn't i would prefer as protagonist role who has a tough and brave character not a weak character. I don't want to be seen as people who are trying to look good to others and when hurt or feel unfairly then blame the situation. I don't wanna be those kinds of person.

Those dramas that I've watched taught me that life also like dramas,
So many up and down, win and lost, cry and laugh...
Those dramas taught me that so many black and white in life...
Those dramas taught me to be tough
Those dramas taught me to dream higher
Those dramas taught me many things
Even those only dramas but i could take a positive things from it.

Yup that's my hobby..watch dramas.
My hobby taught me well...
well deserved to be better and better person day by day

*Ps: inspired by Lee Seung Gi song 

Love Taught me To Drink


                                    -Orienz-

Monday, November 25, 2013

Where did those dreams go?

Dreams sometimes bigger than thoughts
Expectations sometimes higher than what we could achieve
Imaginations sometimes more beautiful than the facts
But does it matter?
It's called life
People deserved for dreaming
People deserved for expecting
People deserved for imagining
Without it all, it's all empty...
Though people would never get enough for everything
but without all those things could people even live?
How could people live without hope?
How could people live without dreams?
It would be so meaningless
It would be so flat

For you who doesn't have dreams,
Where did those dreams go?
Go grab it before too late
Go catch and reach it...
Go...before you don't have anything left
Because nothing is impossible
For your own sake
            

Monday, November 18, 2013

To Be Happy is a Choice

If people could choose they would choose what they want
If people could choose they would choose what the best
If people could choose they would choose the easiest way for everything
If people could choose they would choose happiness on every way
But if every single thing just as easy as they thought 
Will people understand others conditions?
Will people find each other?
Will people feel "need each other"?
Because it seems like i've got what i want, i've got the best, i've got what make me happy so i don't need anything else, i have already became the happiest person in the world.
but it won't happen
Life sometimes won't work as we want
We won't get everything 
Sometimes we need to be hurt
Sometimes we need to be sad
Sometimes we need to be failed
That's for strengthen us
But...
To be happy is a choice
To be happy is our own decision
To be happy is how we put our life
So just be happy!
          
                                  -OrieNz-

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Mind is like a Virus

Mind is like a virus
Can be misleading
Undermine ...
Then kill you slowly ...
Because virus is like a poison ...
Just as your mind!
How to think
Be Positive or Negative!!

Virus is like a poison
Poison is negative
and sometimes most of thoughts are negative ...
But...
In the end all of it just how you can manage it
killed by your own mind or survived

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Empty without Inspirations

write something then write nothing, nothing inspired me...
read something then forget it easily, it's useless..
then i decided i shouldn't write anything but my fingers keep typing...
word for word into a sentence...
but still...nothing comes into my mind..
it feels empty
it feels like boredom
it feels like lonesome

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I  Should  Find Some INSPIRATIONS!!!!!
 
 





 

Friday, November 8, 2013

"Home is Your Heart"

My best friend said…
“Home isn't a place for you to stay. Home isn't just a room where you can spend your time. Home isn't a house. Home is your heart, as long as you can make your heart become something special, You are at home now and forever…”- Rian YL-
And I want to say…
Thank you friend…you make me understand…
I realized I have to make myself feel at home…

No matter what happened to me and no matter where I am, as long as I can make myself comfort and be the way I am. I’m always at home…

cr: www.deviantart.com
All those things that make me angry, i wanna erase it.
All those things that make me sad, i wanna forget it.
All those things that make me hurt, i wanna skip it.
But life wouldn't be the same as we want, 
It depends on our choices,
appreciate for all you get,
be thankful for everything,
do your best,
life to the fullest,
wherever you'll go make it your home,
because wherever you are, there are so many people beside you
be grateful for everything, always make yourself home.

-Orienz-
Cr: www.picstopin.com 

"Fashion is Me: Shoes Lover Part 2"



Yup i'm back, after a week i didn't write anything and too many things that i wanna write it makes me more confused. I don't know what to write then i'll continue my previous post about Shoes Lover (Read: Me) :D

Since i have so many shoes that i wanna buy and for now i couldn't... no no no not this time, i should hold myself from shoes temptations, so i will post another picture of my shoes
Here we go.......

wedges 

Ankle Boots


Brought by my Friend when she's in Japan tq :*
 *Ps: I also still have another pairs of Shoes :p

To be Honest i have already uploaded these pictures to my instagram and some of my friends thought that i'm a Shoes Seller.. (lol) maybe i should try later because actually i've ever done that before not as Shoes Seller but as Clothes Seller :D i did it until my 2nd year in University. That's one of my hobbies :)
Someday i wanna have my own business, i wanna have my own boutique or clothing line :D but i'm not good at drawing so i have to think about it later :D

-End-

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

"Fashion is Me: Shoes Lover Part 1"


This time i would like to write about Fashion. 
I'm not so crazy about fashion but i wore what i like because i have a quote:
"Fashion is me, no matter how crazy people about fashion and how they wore it, i will wore what i like and what i want as long as it doesn't look weird on me"
I like old-fashioned things like vintage and retro style because i feel comfort with it but not only that because as i said i wore what i like. Honestly i'm a simple one. 

I would write about fashion in detail but not in this post because right now i wanna write about shoes :D
Yup i'm also a shoes lover. But i don't have many collections, I only have a few pairs of it.
But i have a bad habit, when I like the stuff I used to wear it until it damaged L i must change my bad habits.

Until now if i saw shoes that fit in me and i feel comfortable and also like it, i will buy it. As long as the price is still reasonable and not too expensive (LoL) because i don't really like wasting too much money on stuff like that.

As i said:
"Fashion is me, what we wore and who wore it,  it doesn't matter as long as we feel comfort and confidence."
But for me i prefer the simple one J

-OrieNz-



Mine...


Blue Ribbon


Black High Heels Sneakers


Pink Flat Shoes
Bali Flat Shoes


Flat Shoes

*PS: I also still have a few pairs of shoes but I have not uploaded it yet .. maybe later hehehe

*to be continued

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Know How - Multicultural Environment - Make friends

Teacher and Friends Mr. Barry

I'm working in multicultural work environment because i worked in Japanese Government Institution. For the first time, honestly i felt nervous and i wasn't confident with my ability but by the time i know how to handle it. Working with many people from other countries make me realize that i have to know how; how about their culture, how about their work,  how about their habits, how to communicate with them, etc.esp for my job desk, i have met many people not only from my country but also from other countries and I have met many people from all walks of life. such as Minister, Governor, Grassroots, Community etc. and it makes me more realize that i need to know how to behave and how to put myself when dealing with others.

with Mr. Ahmed Kurnia Soeriawidjaja et al

Ms. Erna Witoelar, Mr. Titus Pekei, Ms. Ai Goto, Ms. Nana Mintarti et al

I like meet new people, i like make friends and I've learned that it wasn't easy to make friends with other countries, but working here make me understand that networking is important and it make me easier to meet many people from other countries. Since i worked here i have many friends most of them are from Japan. I have Japanese Teachers friends, University Students' friends, and also NGOs friends, etc. I wish i could go to Japan to meet them L .
with Tohoku Teachers in Aceh

with Governor of Aceh,  Consulate General Japan in Medan, Tohoku Teachers, et al

Meeting people who are used to working with the community make me understand that there are lots of great people out there and they know how to build relation with people from all walks of life. They do not show that they are rich, smart and does not look as though they know in every way. They are very humble, very unassuming, they can embrace a lot of people and make themselves easily accepted by society. I wish i could be like them. Someday...

with Chuo University Students



Jak Japan Matsuri 2013

JJM 2012
So, the most important thing is know how.. from know how we would know lots of things....
and for making friends the most important thing is to be yourself...JJJ

Monday, October 28, 2013

Different Side of Me

Sometimes it's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's okay to cry...
Sometimes it's okay to scream out loud...
Sometimes it's okay to be selfish...
Sometimes it's okay to be stubborn...
Sometimes it's okay to be weak...

But no matter how many times that sometimes is 
If nobody's waken me up from this nightmare, i just need to wake myself up
and brightens the different side of me...

Friday, October 25, 2013

“The Power of Culture to Create a Better Future”

That's my essay that I’ve sent for International Essay Contest for young people 2013. It’s organized by the Goi Peace Foundation and UNESCO Endorsed by the Ministry of Education, Culture, Sports, Science and Technology of JapanJapanese National Commission for UNESCO, Japan Private High School FederationTokyo Metropolitan Board of Education, Japan Broadcasting Corporation, Nikkei Inc. Supported by FELISSIMO CORPORATION and now the winners have already announced! 

I didn't win hehehe but it doesn't matter because at least I’ve registered as one of participants from among 15,105 entries from 157 countries. But actually I was shocked when I read other contestants essays. I thought I have to improve my imagination and also my ability to write (lol)

At least I've tried in my last minute as youth (cry) because next year I won't be able to participated, this is my first experience and also my last chance (smile).
Herewith my essay…
Please enjoy reading it even it is not as good as a professional writer.  (^.^)~ OrieNz

“The Power of Culture to Create a Better Future”

This world is very rich of culture. We cannot count one by one because there are millions even more cultures that exist in this world. Surely every part of the world has its own culture and it seems like culture become an inseparable part of the nation, even regions. For example is Indonesia.

In Indonesia there are so many islands starting from Sumatra, Java, Kalimantan, Sulawesi, etc. up to Papua. In every island it has so many regions. It means that Indonesia is very rich of cultures. Culture itself includes arts, traditions, values, wisdom, customs, etc. some kinds of Indonesian cultures are traditional dances, foods, songs, musical instruments, etc. But the most values that make me proud of Indonesian cultures are friendly and helpful. Indonesian people are famous of its friendly and helpful characters.

There would be no ending if people talk about Indonesian cultures. Because honestly I, myself don’t really know the details of another Indonesian regions culture, I just mostly know about my own region (Sunda – West Java culture) because so many cultures here. But I’m proud to be Indonesian people, especially to be Sundanese because as Sundanese I learn many values to respect everyone, especially our parents. Sundanese Cultures is a culture that upholds manner. Generally they have characters such as gentle, warm-hearted, always smiling, great respect to the elderly, good-humored, etc. Even it depends on the person but most of Sundanese characters are like the mention above. In Sunda, we were taught to speak smooth to older people. That’s why we have “Undak Usuk Basa Sunda (Sundanese Language Etiquette)” almost as the same as Japanese Language and another language has. Indirectly by smooth talking to an older person it means that we are being polite to them and indicates that we appreciate them. That’s the point that makes me pride in.

Then, the question is, how can Youth make the most of them to create a better future? By adopting Sundanese culture, we can apply that if we teach and exemplify youth generation to respect and appreciate others, they can create a better future. Because by respect and appreciate others is the beginning of support each other, understand each other and opened (can receive advice, feedback and criticism from others) and of course they can make this world peaceful. That’s the key to create a better future.

The point is even we are very rich of culture and have different culture but we are one. We live in the same world, we breathe the same air, and we have the same sky. So it is not necessary and no need to be selfish. Let’s make a difference of culture as a force, as a power to create a better future with respect each other, create a peaceful life and take and apply positive values from another region/country’s culture to make this world as a better future for us and for the next generation.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Enjoy Your Time ♪♪♪ LEE SEUNG GI ♥♥♥

Okayyy let's forget about reality for a while, i don't wanna take everything too serious. Because i also have "Me Time".
i will write about my hobbies 

<(^,^)>  I LIKE WATCHING 

 ♥♥♥♥ Lee Seung Gi ♪♪♪♪♪♪

I like K-dramas (Korean) and J-dramas (Japan).
It started 8 years ago, i have watched so many K & J- dramas and until now i can't stop to like it.
Some people might called me as a movie freak, but i don't think so. I'm still a bit normal, even sometimes i couldn't sleep if i haven't finish the story, it always comes into my mind and make me wonder how the story will end. I even sleep for only 2 hours because i'm curious how the story line. But the most important thing for me is who's the main actor and actress. if i don't like them i won't continue it and i always give my opinion how should be the story goes and how about their chemistry and even their act and sometimes i even remember the dialogue (LoL) then how supposed to be i called myself??

Honestly, i always dream to be an actress because i like acting and i like performing since my senior high school time. I always nervous if i have to be on the stage but after it i enjoyed to be on the stage :D
If i have already on the stage i would forget everything and just enjoy my self that's why it would be better if i didn't do it and of course how could i becoming an actress?I'm so afraid and scared if i become famous (just my fantasy) LoL

But i really like acted even i didn't study about that. I also enjoy my time to sing my favourite songs (even some people who heard me sing they will ask me "are you singing or just muttering?") and i also like dancing even i can't dance, people who saw me dance will say " it's an awkward dance" Hahahaha i don't care about that i just enjoy my time because actually i'm a Taurus girl, 
don't care if they can't sing. If they hear their favourite song, they will sing. cr: @Taurus_ht 
Back to K-dramas and J-dramas i have already watch so many of them. I also have so many favorite actor and actresses. if i mention them one by one it will take more time so i will just mention him. I like Korean Singer, MC, Actor (Lee Seung Gi). He's not extremely handsome but he has something. I like his voice and i like his acting. i knew him since my friend mention Brilliant Legacy and honestly i didn't want to watch it for the first time because i just saw the cover of the drama and then i decided not to watched it because he's not really handsome. Then i forget about him BUT i watched My Girlfriend is a Gumiho (MGIG) and the first time i thought that he's not too handsome but after watched it one by one i realized that he's cute and i really like Mr. Dimple.

After it i watched Brilliant Legacy and it makes me like him more, then i watched The King 2 Hearts. OMG i 'm really falling in love with him hahahaha..He's so Handsome there and i like his acting and of course the story. i watched it over and over again. and the latest one is Gu Family Book. i like it too. Until now if i bored and i don't have another drama to watch i will watch Lee seung gi drama again and again hehehehe...
I also listen his songs, and i like his voice :D and i also read that he's a family man and he's smart. OMG i can't stop if i talked about Lee Seung Gi.

ahhh i'm speechless now, i don't know what to say, but for now i still enjoy watch K and J dramas.
Watch and forget about work etc for a while. just me and my hobbies :D

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

My dad - My hero ~ My Mom - My Role Model

My dad - My hero 
I can’t described him
I am lost for words
There are so many words I wanna say
But all I can say is “thank you dad”
Thanks for all you've done for me
Thanks for your prayers
Thanks for your encouragement
Thanks for helping me become who I am today
You've taught me to work hard in order to be successful
Coz life ain't easy for ordinary people
We couldn't always get anything we want
I learned that I must do my best
I can’t get anything without do some efforts
Life is not only dreaming and praying
Thanks a lot dad...
I’ve learnt much from u…
You are my hero…

*for my only daddy

cr: mr. google


For my beloved mom

Someday I wanna be a great mom like you...
Someday I wanna be a wise person like you too...
Everything you do is always makes me proud of you...
No one is the same as you mom...
You have a special place in my heart...
Even though God just gave us 9 year, I’m so glad coz I had a mom like you...
You are the best mom in the world...
I'm so proud of you...
I always pray someday I can be a great mom and always give the best for my children too...
Like you
Love you always mom, forever….
*dedicated to my beloved mom at heaven

One step behind



Looking for happiness,
Fight to reach all dreams,
Cry for every failure.
There are so many things that make you feel unsatisfied
Too many people look to the future
Not appreciative for what you have
Not thankful for what you get
Only thinking about making your dream come true

Just look one step behind
Too many forgotten things
Too many regrets
Too many hopelessness
Such as every moment mean nothing
Every time went by vainly

Look one step behind
For all you've done
For every effort you put
For every tear drops
Everything would make u realized that it means a lot

What you've done means

Introduction ~ oRieNz ~


It's quite a long time ago i posted in my blog, since i was in my university at that time, i was a bit act as teenager and i'm a bit embarrassed if i re-read my blog. I posted writing as i want without even edited first, actually i didn't have much time to do it.
But finally i decided to let it as it is...

My blog become tool to express my feeling, what i feel inside my heart, just let it flows in my writing...
I will activate my blog again, even if none read it doesn't matter. The most important thing is if someone inspired by my post i will be very appreciate and be thankful.

*Please noted that everything i posted in my blog are just for self-motivated, esp. myself. and all posted made and done by me.

WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE?
Life is so simply…
You don't need to explain or described it! All you have to do is let your life walk and flow…let it flows like water…
Life will be so beautiful if you make it so…and it also will be so bad if u do it so too…
Life is something that you can change but you must remember that you can't change something that is death…
Life and deaths are 2 different things but have close relation…when we lived we would die and when we dead it would begin a new life…
You must do the best in your life…you must fight to understand that life is so beautiful…in our life there are laugh, tears, bored, confused, regretful, etc.
You must appreciate life…don't ever let your life become so worst coz God give us life to make us understand that life is something important…
So Love your life…like love yourself…

ini motivasi hidup saya...hidup berjalan seperti apa yang kita inginkan...kitalah penentu arah hidup dan bagaimana alur hidup kita sendiri..bukan orang lain...i'll make it beautiful...thx a lot God..for all u give to me:)



What can we do to achieve our goals ?

cr : www.searchquotes.com 

don't have any idea about what people think but what comes into my mind first is doing the best for everything. Some people might think I don't have any capabilities like them. I know that they're well on almost all areas such as their knowledge, their skills in languages, education background, family background and much more. Compared to me I realize I'm just an ordinary one. I realize that my skills in language are just so-so, nothing special about that, about my family and education background and my life too. But for me I don't have to be ashamed of it.

The fact is I'm proud of it. I’m proud to be who I am today. I’m happy to be my dad and mom’s daughter. I’m happy to be mushier and a tough person at the same time. I'm very grateful to God, for giving me such a wonderful life. Even almost all the paths that God gives to me wasn't as easy as I thought but I've realized that I've already learned much about that. Sometimes my ego told me why I have to be like this, why I couldn’t have anything easy as I want, why I have experienced lots of things in my life. But I realize that only asking why it would never end. It wouldn’t give me answer for everything.

If I only listen to my ego, I wouldn't have anything in my life. I wouldn't do my best. Honestly, I don't have to be ashamed of who I am. The one that should be ashamed is the person that has everything in their life but they didn't do the best of it, such a meaningless life.

For me quote “work hard play hard” have a deep meaning, because if I worked hard, I could do my best and because if I played hard, I could enjoy my life. So, to achieve goals in my life I will always do my best at everything. Even some people might think that I'm naive and I just a passionate girl but It doesn't matter to me because I don’t want to have a regret feeling because I didn't do my best. If I do my best whatever the result won't be a problem; at least I've tried and made the best first.

So what will I do to achieve my goals are do the best, be yourself, be passionate and of course be positive. Happiness will find its way 

*Ps Thanks to Mr. Barry
-Meirina-





My Sweet Revenge


I don't know what to do right now because I’m confused with all things that happened to me lately. I haven't breathed the air but I must face other things. How could I face all those things? I don't know what’s happening but it seems like they are trying to “killing” me softly… not kill in true meaning but they tried to kill my character. I did the right thing but for them I didn't, I didn't make the right one and they blamed me too. Just what am I supposed to do now? Every single thing that I do is wrong!!
If I could, I just want to shout out loud. I really don't know how to handle this.

I just can’t watch everyone blame me for thing that I didn’t do. Everyone stabs me on my back; make me become the one who must be blamed for everything. Blamed for their weakness, for their unhappiness, for everything that they didn't like and they haven’t satisfied, and they make me become someone who had suffered most. And I just want to ask why me???

What I've done before? That makes them hate me so? I try to be myself; try to be who I am, straight to my goal and try to do my best in everything that I have to…
I don't even have anything like them, I don’t have abundant wealth, and I’m just an ordinary one. I even have to struggle for everything I want. I can’t get anything easy.
But at least I have spirit to try to pass and solve it… just do my best as I can.
Are they jealous of my spirit?

Too many questions in my head, my mind, my heart…
I don’t know how to answer it. Because the haters always going to hate.
So I will just let it happen to me whatever their reasons are…
But only for a while…
Until my sweet revenge time come, revenge with succeed…

*ps thanks to Mr. Barry

By: Orienz




Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Baktiku pada Orang tuaku: “ORANG YANG BUKAN SEMBARANG ORANG”


Ibu…
Ayah…
Mereka adalah keluargaku yang paling mengerti aku.
Ibu dan Ayah yang mendidikku sejak kecil. Menuntunku untuk menjadi manusia yang belajar untuk menerima keadaan. Mengajarkanku berbagai ilmu yang tidak bisa kutemukan dari yang lain. Ilmu yang bukan hanya ilmu pengetahuan tapi ilmu kehidupan. Ilmu santun, ilmu menghormati orang lain, ilmu untuk menjadi orang yang bukan sembarang orang. Meskipun kami bukan orang bergelimang harta namun bagi keluargaku pendidikan itu penting. Meskipun ayahku hanya lulusan SMA tapi beliau mampu menyekolahkan 8 anaknya hingga bangku perguruan tinggi. Semua itu tak lepas dari dorongan ibuku. Karena mereka saling mendukung dan saling mengerti apa yang harus dilakukan satu sama lainnya. Ketika ayah membanting tulang mencari nafkah, ibuku mendidik dan mengurus keluarga dirumah. Mereka berdua yang menyadarkanku bahwa kehidupan memang tidak mudah namun kita tetap harus menjalaninya dengan sebaik-baiknya. Awalnya aku menjalani dan tidak mengerti mengapa orang tuaku mendidik anak-anaknya seperti ini. Untuk apa semua itu…??

Awalnya aku selalu membandingkan kehidupanku dengan orang lain. Aku selalu bertanya-tanya mengapa orang lain bisa mendapatkan segala yang mereka inginkan hanya dengan menjentikkan jarinya? Mengapa orang lain ketika tidak mendapatkan yang mereka inginkan lantas memaksakan kehendaknya? Mengapa orang lain dengan marah-marah dan mengamuk bisa mendapat apa yang mereka mau sedangkan aku tidak??Dari situlah aku belajar, dari situlah aku mengerti bahwa menjadi orang tua itu tidak selalu harus menuruti keinginan anaknya. Menjadi orang tua itu harus bisa membuat anak sadar dan mengerti bahwa hal apa saja yang bisa kita dapatkan dan apa yang tidak bisa kita dapatkan. Semua itu pun demi kebaikan anak itu sendiri. Kini aku telah merasakan semua hikmah dari didikan kedua orangtuaku dan aku sangat bersyukur karena memiliki orang tua seperti ayah dan ibuku.

Namun bagiku, takdir tertulis lain dalam kehidupanku. Ibuku dipanggil yang Maha Kuasa ketika aku masih berumur 10 Tahun. Awalnya aku belum begitu merasakan efeknya, namun setelah waktu demi waktu kulalui tanpa kehadiran ibu, aku menyadari betapa berharganya orangtuaku bagiku! Tanpa ibu aku sempat hilang arah dan tidak tahu bagaimana menyikapi masalah seolah kapal laut yang berlayar tanpa Nakhoda! Tanpa ibu aku kesepian dan merasa kurang kasih sayang, tanpa ibu hidupku menjadi hambar. Hari-hari tanpa ibu membuatku merasa kosong dan hampa. Namun semua itu menjadikanku untuk menjadi anak yang tidak manja, anak yang harus bisa menyelesaikan persoalan sendiri. Anak yang harus mampu mandiri. Semua itu berkat ibuku, ibu yang hanya aku yang memiliki! Walaupun pahit memang namun sedikit demi sedikit aku belajar. Tak sedikit aku berderai air mata, namun air mata itu bagiku bukan tanda kelemahan. Aku percaya bahwa walaupun ibu telah tiada namun beliau pasti berharap aku dapat menjalani kehidupan dengan sebaik-baiknya. Walaupun beliau sudah meninggalkanku namun kenangannya akan selalu hidup dalam memoriku. Ohhh Ibuku tersayang!!

Ayah... Beliau pun SUPER bagiku, ayah mengajarkanku banyak hal. Ayahku serius soal pendidikan, beliau tidak ingin aku main-main dengan pendidikan. Ayahku telah melewati masa jayanya saat aku mulai merangkak ke bangku kuliah. Sehingga saat-saat dimana aku harus mencicipi kuliah disanalah aku merasakan bagaimana pahitnya kehidupan. Bagaimana sulitnya mencapai sesuatu. Namun aku tidak ingin menyerah. Ayah selalu mengatakan untuk tidak main-main dalam hal apapun. Ayah selalu ingin aku bersungguh-sungguh. Ayah juga selalu mengingatkanku untuk menghormati dan menghargai orang lain. Oh Ayaahh! Beliau selalu mengatakan bahwa mungkin aku tidak seperti orang lain yang selalu bisa mendapatkan segala keinginan dengan mudah. Aku harus mendapatkan sesuatu dengan usaha dan kerja keras. Ayah mengatakan padaku bahwa aku tidak perlu malu dengan identitasku. Justru aku harus bersyukur karena memang aku ini bukan siapa-siapa dan dengan cara seperti ini aku bisa mempelajari banyak hal. Karena mungkin orang akan menyepelekan kita namun itu harus menjadikan acuan untuk lebih maju. Tidak perlulah banyak sesumbar dan jangan pernah sombong atas apa yang dicapai, banyaklah berpikir dan bergerak. Jangan hanya menerima keadaan tanpa melakukan apa-apa.

Benar memang benar apa yang dikatakan orang tuaku, apalah yang bisa kita banggakan? Apalah yang bisa kita pamerkan kepada orang lain?dan untuk apa semua itu? Karena memang selalu ada orang yang lebih hebat dari kita. Selalu ada yang lebih kaya dari orang kaya, selalu ada yang lebih pintar dari yang pintar! Selalu ada yang lebih dari yang lebih, maka dari itu janganlah terlalu berbangga diri.
Aku memang dari kampung dan aku bukan keluarga yang kaya, aku bukan anak pejabat atau apalah. Namun ayah selalu mengatakan……
“Walaupun dari kampung yang penting tidak kampungan toh?”
“Untuk apa minder dengan orang-orang lulusan universitas ternama dari luar negeri, harusnya mereka yang malu karena kamu yang bisa duduk berdampingan dengan mereka?”
“Selalu belajarlah santun terhadap orang lain, agar mereka pun bisa berprilaku santun terhadap kita”
Dan banyak ucapan ayah yang menginspirasiku.
Maka dari itu aku akan sangat tidak suka bila ada yang berlaku dan mengatakan hal yang tidak pantas tentang keluargaku!
Kami memang bukan siapa-siapa namun orang lain tidak berhak menilai orang hanya dari segi materi atau kedudukan.

Orang tua bagiku sangat berharga. Miris dan sedih bila aku melihat dan mendengar berita mengenai orang yang tega berbuat keji terhadap orang tuanya. Aku tak habis pikir, mengapa bisa ada orang-orang yang menelantarkan orang tuanya, membiarkan orang tuanya yang sudah sepuh untuk masih berjibaku dengan kehidupan yang keras ini. Memfoya-foyakan apa yang dimiliki orang tuanya dan tidak bekerja keras untuk mencapai sesuatu. Mungkin memang tida semua orang seperti itu namun apakah mereka tidak mengerti betapa sakitnya bila ditinggalkan orang yang kita kasihi?? Mungkin mereka tidak menyadari karena mereka belum mengalami, tetapi bagaimana nantinya jika mereka telah menjadi orang tua dan anaknya tidak berbakti terhadap mereka, barulah mereka menyadari??pasti sungguh sakitnya tiada tara!

Oleh karena itu, aku tidak ingin menjadi anak yang tidak berbakti kepada orang tua. Aku masih memiliki ayah yang harus aku hargai, aku ingin melakukan banyak hal untuk beliau. Meskipun aku tidak akan pernah bisa membalas budi kedua orangtuaku. Namun setidaknya aku harus melakukan hal dengan sungguh-sungguh. Ayah dan Ibu pasti tidak akan meminta banyak hal kepada kita. Namun mereka pasti terluka hatinya bila kita hilang arah dan tujuan dalam kehidupan. Bila kita sudah tidak memiliki semangat dan keinginan untuk berbuat sesuatu, jangankan untuk orang lain untuk diri sendiri pun tidak!!Janganlah menjadi orang yang seperti itu.  Aku sadar aku pun orang biasa, banyak berbuat salah dan mungkin banyak orang yang tidak menyukaiku. Tapi aku ingin belajar, belajar menjadi orang yang baik, yang bila melakukan kesalahan aku bisa memperbaikinya. Belajar menerima kekalahan dan berusaha bangkit setelahnya. Belajar walaupun aku terjatuh tapi berusaha untuk bangkit kembali. Arus gelombang dalam kehidupanku memang naik dan turun, tapi aku ingin belajar untuk hidup di dalamnya dan menerima itu sebagai bagian dari kehidupanku.

Aku ingin berbakti kepada orang tuaku.
Aku ingin berbakti kepada Ibuku walaupun sekarang aku hanya bisa berdoa untuknya. Walaupun aku sudah tidak bisa memeluk dan melihat senyumnya. Namun akan selalu kutitip doa untuknya agar Ibu berbahagia disana.

Aku ingin berbakti kepada Ayahku walaupun aku belum bisa memberikan apa-apa untuknya. Setidaknya mulai sekarang aku akan memulainya. Menjadi seseorang yang terdidik oleh orang tuanya. Yang dimana bersikap dan berprilaku baik dan bisa menghargai orang. Yang tidak menyepelekan orang lain, yang menghormati orang lain dan santun. Kekerasan dan emosi tidak akan menyelesaiakan masalah dan kita harus berani bersikap serta memiliki prinsip. AAhhh sulit memang namun aku akan berusaha. Aku tidak ingin melakukan itu untuk orang lain. Semua ini pembelajaran yang dinasehatkan dari orang tuaku dan suatu saat bisa kuterapkan terhadap keluargaku!! Syukur-syukur untuk keluarga yang lain. yang selalu kuingat adalah “Bila orang tak mau meneguk pahit getir masa belajar beberapa saat, Dia akan merasakan kebodohan seumur hidup.” Dan aku tak mau seperti itu…

Kasih sayang yang diberikan orang tuaku tak kan pernah lekang sepanjang masa.  Kasih sayang orang tualah yang selalu menguatkanku dalam menjalani kehidupan ini.
Aku ingin menjadi sukses…
Sukses membina diriku untuk lebih maju, sukses dalam pendidikan, sukses dalam pergaulan, sukses dalam pekerjaan, sukses di lingkungan sekitar.

Aku ingin menjadi orang yang berguna bagi masyarakat, aku ingin menjadi orang yang bukan hanya memikirkan diriku sendiri, tetapi juga keluargaku, lingkungan sekitarku agar orang-orang bisa merasakan kasih sayang dan ketulusan hatiku… sehangat dan selembut kasih sayang orang tuaku.
Baktiku untuk negaraku…Bagaimanapun keadaan negaraku aku tetap mencintainya karena disinilah tanah kelahiranku dan aku bersyukur karenanya.
Baktiku untuk kampung halamanku…Apapun yang orang katakan tentangku dan kampung halamanku, aku tetap mencintainya karena disinalah tempat aku dibesarkan dengan keramahan serta kelembutannya.
Baktiku untuk keluargaku.. Aku menyayangi keluargaku apa adanya, sebagaimana mereka menyayangiku.
Baktiku untuk orang tuaku….Aku bahagia memiliki orang tua yang telah membimbingku dan membesarkanku dan aku bersyukur telah dibekali ilmu yang belum tentu semua orang bisa mendapatkannya..

Terima kasih Ibu…
Terima kasih Ayah…
Terima kasih keluargaku…
Tanpa semuanya, kita hanyalah susunan kata yang tidak pernah bisa menjadi kalimat
sedangkan untukmu, aku ingin menjadi orang itu..
orang yang bukan sembarang orang