long time...

Uda lumayan lama gw g posting blog,ksibukan d kmpz bkin w lumayan headache..
Gosh I really need a break,under pressured bgt ni gw..I wanna go to d beach...argggghhh tp skrg w lg kere dahsyat n msti prepare buat plp aka ngajar d sma,oow w msti jd guru hihiyy..slain ntu skripsi bkin w g tenang...deuh w msti nyari side job uy,ada redaksi yg mw ngepublish tulisan w g y wkwkwk smoga aj ad amiieeennn

for now i'm not sure what i want.i just wanna appreciate all i have...

I'm not sure about my feeling now...
I'm really confused of all

you ask me what about my feeling to you?
and i don't know how to answer it...
'coz i can't go anywhere for now

I'm not sure of what i want...
coz someone make me hard to make a decision
he wouldn't let me go until i want him to do it...
but i can't let him go for now...
coz i need him...
my heart's still belong to him...
for now...i just wanna appreciate all i have...

for someone who has special place in my heart...

I'm sorry for all...
i don't know what happened to you...
i just know that you've broken my heart...
why you didn't tell me anything???
you always keep all for me,
let it becomes your secret...

who i am for you?
don't you want to share it with me!
should i let you?
even i know that you need me?

I'm really sorry..
i know that we have to walk in different way right now...
but i believe we still care each other...
so,don't go away from me if you don't want it...

if you need me,I'll always be here for you...
'coz I'm care of you...

Everybody has their own way

Everybody has their own way…
Do you know where the place that I can hide is?
Please show me rite now…
‘Coz I wanna go far and run away from all
‘Coz everything is too hard for me
I don’t wanna run away but this is the best way
None even cares…
None even sad…
I’m with me…
Not with another body…
I’m tired of all…
I hate always hurt…
I don’t wanna be weak anymore
I wanna find my happiness
I wanna change all tears become smile
Everything should be changed!
Everything should walk fine
‘Coz where there’s a will there’s a way
And of course God is fair…
Everybody has their own way…
Everybody has their own sadness n happiness
So do I am…
When I fall, I can stand up!
When I failed, I can try to be better!
When I’m sick, I’m going to be health!
And when I cry, I can smile!
Everything is going to be okay even when you surrender
U must face all…
So, don’t even worries
‘Coz everything has its own way…
By: Orienz

Hey Girl!!

Wake up girl!!!

I can’t write anything! I feel so bad…really bad! I never feel like this! I just can say I DON’T KNOW!!!I hate feel like this. Feel that I am a silly girl! What am I supposed to do? I wanna scream n asking where are my brain? Why I can’t think anything! I have to find something that can make me change! Just think, think and think…
Nothing I do…
Just go to hell feeling so bad!
C’mon u must wake up n stop saying I don’t know, I can’t, and I’m silly!!!
Don’t ever give up even just for a second!
Coz God hate it!
God hate people who give up without do some efforts!
If u do something and the result is not like what u want don’t ever give up n say ouch…!If u failed, it is good coz when u failed u know what u have to do n u have an experience to solve your problems n you’ll try to be better n better …
If u never failed, u would never know anything! U would never change!
When we failed, God absolutely have other plan to us! God had arranged everything for us! So, when everything does not walk as u wish, don’t say anything! Just say “Thanks a lot God coz I believe that U have better plan for me”…that’s the best way…hope everything’s going to be alright n don’t ever give up!!
By: Orienz

Filled with Anger

Filled with Anger…
There are so many things that come into my mind. It comes so suddenly n make me so shocked. I wanna scream but my voice is lost. I wanna tell to somebody but none besides me.
Everything’s always same n none understand me. In my head always exist so many questions but I don’t have any answers, so it flows with worst way.
I can’t understand myself…But this is me!!! I’m not silly! I’m a smart girl n “they” don’t know it! I’ll be so angry if they don’t appreciate me! Right now u can see my action so slowly because you’ll feel so regret if don’t see me!
I’m a good girl with great attitude. My broken wings cannot disturb me! It would help me and make everything walk fluently…
By: Orienz

Shadow behind you

Everybody has their own way… Do you know the place that I can hide? Please show me right now… ‘Coz I wanna go run and far away from everything ‘Coz everything is too hard for me I don’t wanna run away but this is the best way Nobody even cares… Nobody’s sad… I’m alone… Not with another body… I’m tired of everything… I hate being hurt… I don’t wanna be weak anymore I wanna find my happiness I wanna change my tears into smile Everything should be changed! Everything should work fine ‘Coz where there’s a will there’s a way And of course God is fair… Everybody has their own way… Everybody has their own sadness n happiness So do I am… When I fall, I can stand up! When I failed, I can try to be better! When I’m sick, I’m going to be healthy And when I cry, I can smile! Everything’s gonna be okay even when you surrender U must face it all… So, don’t even worry ‘Coz everything has its own way… By :orienz